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Thursday, October 30, 2008

Talk about mixed blessings

The bad news is I am covering duties with limited help & I counted the sourcing effort a one man show. Totally inhumane effort.
The good news is I enjoy that challenge.

The bad news is I worked the whole day feeling like my heart is beating 150 counts per minute, a slight nauseous threaten in the throat , walking, typing, thinking, and REALLY working 5 times my usual speed.
The good news is I didn't die from it.

The bad news is I kinda got hit by a reckless driver today. The case of reckless commuter versus reckless driver.
The good news is I wasn't injured. (But I was embarrased.)


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The bad news is Fyn & I had only 30 mins to savour the rest, the coffee during lunch. Totally insufficient & in a rush.
The good news is I finally had my decent cuppa.

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The bad news is my right shoe and its' soles finally decided to get separation.
The good news is they only came to the decision when I am less than 200 meters shy from home. I bid them both farewell in the trash bag when I reached home.


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The bad news is tomorrow is gonna be another long work day.
The good news is...Tomorrow's Friday. T.G.I.F!

Love,

Ling

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

No regrets

I learned something. You can work like a dog from 9 to 6 but it is important to NOT look like one before 9 and after 6.
Just today, I bumped onto 2 familiar faces after work. One was my poly mate,going for her evening lessons and another, my old time ex-neighbour.
I thank the invisible hand that leads me to dig my makeup pouch to touch up a lil' before leaving the office.
I had a terrible,busy day and could have just leave office looking like Count' (Dracula)just drew half of my blood away.
I imagined them thinking that I (heavily) photoshop my photos @ Friendster/Facebook if they had seem my shagged looks.

Speaking of work, my situation felt like this now.



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Helpless situation. A lil overload but perhaps can be salvaged.

At certain hours, it really feels like this.

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Dead. Period.

And speaking of work, I guess the load ahead will eventually further demote Grumpsville to DumpsVille. With eventual departure of my dear friend @ work, I guess the days might be just a little more tougher than I imagined.

Oh well...Nonetheless, there would be no gathering without parting. At least I am glad to share 3 long years of companionship here with you in Grumpsville.

I hereby wish you all the best in your new job and yes, staff discount please.

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Say Whassup to Nano e penguin.

My EARLIEST X'mas gift.

I Just,only just thought of the name 'Nano' cos' it's small. Should I call it Ipod?

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No regrets loving you,

- Ling & Nano.

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

One switch left behind

While ironing my mum's work pants yesterday, I thought I heard some 'shingles' as I rattled my hand,I gave it a light shake again and there it was. The sweet sound that coins made as they bumped onto each other.

I thought I would get lucky again. I thought perhaps Fairy Godmama would favour me again. She rewarded me $5 when I was hanging the clothes on the bamboo sticks when mum was away for holidays previously. I think she stole that $5 from my mum's jeans but it's ok. Finder's keeper.

I looked at the pocket and it stares back emptily at me. Empty. It sure looks empty.
So I shook it light again.
-Shingle,shingle,shingle-
"Coins,coins,coins!!" I thought to myself.

It took me what it seemed like 10 seconds to realise where does that 'shingling' came from.
Behold.


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My chunky braclet (Jason's aunts' bday gift for me)

Spell duh duh duh duh dooofus.

I had a lengthy sleep but it still doesn't feel enough. I wish the birds & rats would not start their concerts as early as 6am plus. It keeps me awake for a long time and short time to get back to sleep again - Only to wake up in 10 mins time by the time I fall back to sleep.

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Off to Grumpsville.

I went to work today, feeling my brain isn't functioning totally. This feeling carries on till I reached home.

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What I looked like before going Grumpsville

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What I looked like returning from Grumpsville

Totally fagged.

Sometimes we lead a day feeling like leaving a switch on our bodies unswitched. Sometimes I feel like I forgot a mutiple of switches altogether. It leaves me a pretty hollow feeling, especially in the head.
I walked back home (jaded) feeling like a puppet. If you snap your fingers infront of me and order me to sleep, I would close my eyes and sleep.

I do not like this feeling.
Very much.

Tomorrow gonna be another shot. I fear tracing my steps back to grumpsville but I hope to do better tomorrow.

I hope I leave no switches behind tomorrow.

Monday, October 27, 2008

Not a pretty sight

After a painful scrub, I decided to turn she-hulk, without the muscles and power.
I spread the clay mask on my face, hoping it will turn me into some beautiful creation when I wash them off. I try to be healthy by eating yogurt,somewhat makes me sick after which.

I listen to Mraz alot these days and as if (his voice) some hypnotizing spell, I laid my legs on the table,drifting to some light snooze.
The after rain evening sun was barely warm enough and the sudden cold breeze makes me smile, almost cracking my mask.

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If my legs are any shorter, I might have some difficulty reaching the table.

I could only picture myself laying on a hammock,tied to 2 coconuts trees @ the beach. I did had one such opportunity but besides me was Jason's family. A lil' noisy for my own comfort liking.
How was your Mon-liday?

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I did warn you of the ugly sight before you read on.
Enjoy each day as you are given.

Too much words, too few actions

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Clarke Quay - People booze and booze. No one is drunk till someone barfs.

I wanted to do something with my hands but with my laptop on, I find my fingers being lured back to the keyboard,trying to dance.

But my brain is kinda dead now.

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Stardust scattered on the ground

Before embarking to Lalala land last night, I find myself boarding a 30 mins tram ride. It was all sweet,almost toxicating and dreamy. Nothing feels real when I wake up the next morning. Irene's smses are real though.My coughing is real. My dad's (awful) smoke is real.

I guess I have to stick with what is real eventually.

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You won't find yourself living long if you refused to lift your head above the water to breathe.

Some flames. Meant to be extinguish.

Go get them, tiger ;)

Stop doubting my orders!

We had dinner at White Dog Cafe, Vivo last evening. My 'brilliant' suggestion. I had somewhat good experience the previous time and I guess it is not a bad idea to visit them a second time.



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If you ask me, it is somewhat a lil' digusting to have dog fur/hair as the cover of the menu. That puts me off a lil' when I was to order.

I guess they have all the trainees from Shatec. Clearly none that came to serve us is local. A lil' annoying when you hear your orders pronounced the wrong way and I thought I ordered the wrong stuff.

I ordered Aglio Olio. I ordered Aglio Olio more than 5 times outside and I know Aglio Olio is nothing but pasta and garlic,chili and olive oil. Waitress A in her accent which I couldn't make up (I even ask Vonx what was she talking about), was trying to tell me it is just plain pasta and sound like I don't know what my orders are. She explained to me and I think she just wanna ask if I would like any toppings with it.

"Yea, I know it is just pasta and I want that only." My answer to her and she walked off.

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I thought that is too much garlic for liking and simply no fragrance for it.

We carried on talking, laughing and crying. I swore that I would drink coffee and again when I made my order,it happened again.

I ordered Paddy creame (Peppermint choco coffee?). Waitress B told me that my order is similar to another one in the menu. I KNOW my orders. I am literate and I can read the description. I know there are 2 coffees in the menu which are similar but just take my order. I didn't came to Singapore only yesterday.

Granted they are trying to be helpful, trained to be so but it is kinda plucking my nerves. I had asked specifically to hold the whipped cream and had heard Waitress B repeating my orders before she went off.

My drink still came with cream on top nonetheless.

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Chocolate fudge cake. It is the other thing than ice cream for me to trade my soul. (Not.)

I have a few suggestions for you if you decide to pop them a visit.

1)Wear a jacket. It's gonna get cold eventually.

2)Wear a label that says, "I do NOT welcome suggestions." or "Just take my orders.Stop talking."

3)Try not to order Aglio Olio.

4)Just give them the dish numbers and try not to pronounce it. They will still pronounce it the wrong way for you eventually.

The sky is gonna bawl anytime soon. Guess it's time for me to hit the toilet and sing to the iron, dance with the broom and the mop before giving my body a scrub.

Mon-liday. Ends faster than you can even think about it.

Craziness

Is actually a matter of point of view.
I think so.

Many things that we did, we thought we are crazy. Doing things that would not gain appproval of the outsiders. They think we are crazy to do that, give up that, didn't do this, didn't let go of this.
And actually crazy enough to let emotions take charge.

Craziness.
Is actually subjective. It all depends on who we are, where we are and the things running us through.

There is no shame in being crazy, depending on how you take these
-Jason Mraz 'Beautiful Mess'

So if you think what you are doing now is crazy, don't let your own emotions and thoughts to be judge by the outside world. They do not see the things you see and do not feel the emotions you feel.

Don't blame yourself for being crazy. You only live once to be crazy.
Just stay sane. Sanity and craziness can run together if you call the shots.

Think about it. It can happen.

Sunday, October 26, 2008

I guess I have to get ready for the dinner later.
I do not believe such sleazy guys still exisit on Earth and kinda deflated the hope of meeting romeos.

I was about to back date another post when suddenly a guy,whom I have no idea when I added to my MSN list(now blocked), appeared.


Lim says:
hihi

Lim says:
wat u doin

[c=20][b]Se\orta [/b][/c] - says:
u r?

Lim says:
jason

[c=20][b]Se\orta [/b][/c] - says:
which jason

Lim says:
ur friendster friend

Lim says:
Jason Lim

[c=20][b]Se\orta [/b][/c] - says:
n do u rem me?

[c=20][b]Se\orta [/b][/c] - says:
not the TEP jason?

Lim says:
nono

Lim says:
i quite long no online le

Lim says:
can u add mi another new account ??

Lim says:
***********@hotmail.com

[c=20][b]Se\orta [/b][/c] - says:
i seldom fiddle with Friendster now

Lim says:
kk

Lim says:
can exch hp no to phone contact ?

Lim says:
9*********

[c=20][b]Se\orta [/b][/c] - says:
no

Lim says:
y ?

Lim says:
bf dun allow ?

[c=20][b]Se\orta [/b][/c] - says:
it is my personal opinion to exchange no n not

Lim says:
kk

[c=20][b]Se\orta [/b][/c] - says:
my bf wont disapprove w my life

Lim says:
wat's ur age ?

[c=20][b]Se\orta [/b][/c] - says:
32

Lim says:
kk

Lim says:
mi 24

Lim says:
can meet u ?

[c=20][b]Se\orta [/b][/c] - says:
what for

Lim says:
go out ?

[c=20][b]Se\orta [/b][/c] - says:
i guess i have more than enuff companion

[c=20][b]Se\orta [/b][/c] - says:
thanks

Lim says:
??

Lim says:
friends onli wor

[c=20][b]Se\orta [/b][/c] - says:
my definition of frens goes deeper than this

Lim says:
oh how come ?

[c=20][b]Se\orta [/b][/c] - says:
pple that i dun even know hardly qualify as friends

Lim says:
kk

Lim says:
u gt cam ?

[c=20][b]Se\orta [/b][/c] - says:
not web

Lim says:
oh kk

[c=20][b]Se\orta [/b][/c] - says:
thanks for chatting but I have to leave it here

Lim says:
kk

Why don't we sleep all day - Jason Mraz

A random thought to change the blogskin and after searching for some, I decided to go back to basic.
Black was the ideal one but I thought to give it some earth tone.

Good Sunday,friends. Thank God tomorrow is a Mon-liday (Monday-holiday)!
I am a lil' Mraz hooked lately(Ever since that dream which I now recalled not even bit of the details of it.) and 'Sleep all day' is playing over and over again on my laptop.

Let's see what pictures did I not post yet?

On 23rd October 08

Photobucket The only dish that's worth mentioning at Mad Jack's Cafe.
Other than that, Fyn & I have yet to find another one that's worth to talk about.

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Marble cheesecake, blueberry cheesecake and oreo cheesecake respectively. My colleagues got that from Secret Recipe. It's a promotion and I can't wait to sink my teeth in their cakes when I go to KL in around 2 weeks to come.

Photobucket A relatively healthy miso soup I had later that night. 23rd October is seriously calories overfilled and I can't make another mistake at dinner.

Yesterday, glorious and over heated Saturday, Jason & I headed to Chinatown in his vrooomm-noisy red Chevolet.







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My intention was to (hopefully) dig some second hand good deals & head for a good cuppa later in the day. While there is no second hand flea on Saturdays, we walked aimlessly getting tanned and dehydrated.

PhotobucketLunch @ Maxwell market. Queues at featured stalls, Singaporeans would only queue orderly for good food.

PhotobucketMy lunch.

I thought I wasn't hungry enough but we stopped by this HK desserts shop shortly after. I was asking Jason what is coming to Chinatown without eating desserts, then we saw the shop nicely display at our right.

Pure coincidence, I swear.

PhotobucketThey are highly recommending their durian pomelo.(sp?)

PhotobucketMy durian pomelo and double boiled 雪蛤. $10 gone,just like that.

PhotobucketClosing up is the goodness & richness of a durian.

I don't understand why there are some who don't like durian (like Jason).

It sure make me happy finally having a chance to eat one,despite my cough. My remedy for cough and sore throat is always to hit it with more toxics.

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Photobucket Jason is always camera ready for me. I really think he musn't smile to look better.



Welcome to IKEA
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We aheaded to IKEA,queenstown next outta not much choices. I picked that 2 flower wall lamps upon stepping in and chucked them aside after considering the practicability of it.
We had our dinner there and despite it's food court like manner, IKEA dishes are quite pleasing to the stomach.
Photobucket I know we ate quite alot.
I seem to be the only shameless camwhorer in IKEA. I didn't see anyone but myself busy snapping away. On the brighter note, I am in a good mood.
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This is my ideal kitchen layout.
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Ideally but not made for Singapore's HDB. Jason almost sneered saying it's not possibe to find such a spacious kitchen in Singapore. I told him a bigger house would be the solution.
After combing that whole of queenstowns, we headed to Holland V. I really thought I should complete my weekend with a nice brewed coffee in a cafe.

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It was supposed to be Starbucks till Jason saw Haagen-Dazs. I had a $20 voucher for it so why not.

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For Jason, the most ideal partner for ice - cream is waffle. We chose 3 ice creams with a waffle and when the dish arrived, I almost laughed my head off.

PhotobucketThat waffle was so small(though good)! I had imagined a decent size that would hold that 3 scoops.

Nonetheless Haagen-Dazs ice creams save one's soul. Ice cream, possibly one of the best food inventions at all times. Oh, there is chocolate too.

PhotobucketI think I ate way too much yesterday that it distorts my looks.There were so many wrong takes and this (photo) is the least damaged one.

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Going to meet Irene & Vonx later @ Vivo. What should I dress? I swear I would order coffee later. It's not even a crave, it is just something to do so that I would feel right.

Good bye emotions. Hello stranger.